A Week Later

It has been a week since the first pregnancy test, and I feel like I am keeping the biggest secret ever. I can't help think how every person I speak to will react. This past week I have had to turn down alcoholic drinks 3 times, and I feel like every time I say "no thanks" they will KNOW!!

I have joined a couple of message boards just so that I can talk to someone about this pregnancy. Fiancé and I are really excited about this baby, but part of me wishes it happened a few months from now... As superficial as this seems I am really worried about my wedding dress fitting. This pregnancy is something I have wanted for over 5 years, and I am feeling so blessed that is has happened but at the same time apprehensive. I work in a really small office, how much will this news affect them? I know that isn't my priority, but it worries me. Fiancé isn't so secure in his employment situation at the moment, being on sabbatical and working on his CGA. So Money in the new year worries me. My parents will be happy but I know my mom will be disappointed that it didn't happen after the wedding. I know my sisters will be happy for me, they recently confided to me that they will be trying to add to their families in the fall. A week before I peed on the stick my sister actually said "Can you imagine if the three of us were all pregnant at the same time?? That would be crazy!"

Well this life of mine is crazy. So much has happened in my life in the last year, and I am truly blessed by all of it.